Masostalgia
masochistic nostalgia - 1. the act of revisiting one's past with the direct intention to feel its sting. 2. a form of self-inflicted emotional abuse, in which one intentionally reminisces over painful memories, or seeks out reminders of said memories.
"The twilight friscalated along coldharbour road that september eve. I remember it well during masostalgia, when only the sweet taste of lady scotch can quell my demons.