aweshamed
A strong mixed emotion of astonishment and inadequacy due to one's own subpar execution or experience regarding something of which they can relate and have witnessed in amazement yet cannot attain or duplicate.
I was once inspired to write a screenplay for a movie, yet when I saw "_____" I was so aweshamed I could not bear to continue.
He saw her 10 years later with his old high school friend; they were hand in hand. She looked better than ever and he was aweshamed of what he once lost.
He saw her 10 years later with his old high school friend; they were hand in hand. She looked better than ever and he was aweshamed of what he once lost.