sysyphean
Someone who is constantly affected mentally by their failures, so much to the point where one becomes numb to the pain and is now using past failures as fuel to achieve what they’re striving for.
Me: Yo bro, when I think about it, I’m a really sysyphean person
Bro: Wym?
Me: It means I use my past failures as fuel for what I strive for
Bro: Wym?
Me: It means I use my past failures as fuel for what I strive for