clerical PTSD
A kind of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) brought on by overexposure to too many scandals and problems in the modern church (such as impious Norvus Ordo liturgies that border on the sacrilegious, nearly constant news of insensitive and corrupt bishops, and abuse of different kinds).
I know that missing mass is wrong, but I think that too many "clown" masses have given me clerical PTSD.