god-shatter
The gradually-intensifying, mind-twisting period of profound confusion, unprecedented desperation and abject hopelessness endured through the haunting process of realization that--there is not, has never been and will never be a prayer answering, omnipotent, omnipresent and omnibenevolent deity.
She wasn't sure that she would survive god-shatter. Everything and everyone she had ever known now seemed alien, disconnected and strange. But in time, life itself became more precious than ever, each relationship more cherished, each experience uniquely valued; yet not for the promise of some eternal tomorrow, rather for the evanescence of the moment.
god-shatter
The psychological equivalent of throwing a crystal vase onto a brick wall; dismantling religious conditioning by subjecting it to Socratic interrogation.
Apologetics, straw-man arguments, appeal to divinity, scripture and god's word...all fall in the wake of logic, reason and Socratic evaluation...god-shatter revelation.